Constant Struggle With My Lizard Brain

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Ever since I started my solopreneur journey a year ago I was reinventing and challenging myself. It was a difficult emotional labor for me every single day, and it’s still. It’s not easy to embrace that growth is difficult and that some part of me should die. I feel the resistance and unwillingness of this part of me to evolve, to change and to grow. It tries to keep me safe, to prevent change, to fit in and be like everybody else.

Although, I cannot stay the same person if I want to build a life I want. I’m learning to accept that the fear, stress and anxiety is a sign of me moving in a right direction. Being open, authentic, myself and punting myself out there is very scary. I’m afraid of being judged, of having nothing valuable to say, and failing. I was taught all my life to fit in, and that failing is bad. So my brain continues following these patterns.

But unlike animals we have other parts of our brain that can be creative, seek to grow, search to empathize, and connect with others.

So today I decided to start before I’m ready. To write, to share my ideas, to learn, to fail. But just put myself out there and see what happens. I decided to stop overthinking, and just do something.

I’m sure that tomorrow I will be better in writing and my fear will fade away if I have enough courage and persistence to stick to it, and don’t give up when it becomes difficult.